My life

2010-02-22T13:44:00.002+08:00

months has passed... i go through a lot of things... n ya... so far im getting stress up on my studies but i try to cope with everything... n ya.. i gt caught smoking by my parents... hahaha.. dun give a damn urh... now im currently single... =) i have nth much to say... hehs... btw peeps... i have no time to update my blog... if i have time... i will re link you guys... take care... lots of love...=)

2010-01-25T16:35:00.002+08:00

Today im totally stress out seh.... with the sch stuffs.!!! i feel like my head gonna explode.!! Eventhough it stress out, but at the same time is fun also.. i learn a lot of new things...

btw next week is Audi's birthdae party... i wonder wat to buy 4 her... not only that, dun know wat clothes to wear cause the theme is party like rockstar.... i kept on thinking frm last week, wat to wear sia.... but still no idea... haiz... wish tat dere a fashion counsellor tat can guide me through... hahaha... klah gtg... update it soon...... =)

2010-01-23T15:02:00.002+08:00

hey peeps, dere a lot of thing i wan to say... let make it short.. abt my sch, so far its great.. i enjoying the course.. currently im joining netball... i knw its the 1st time joining sports... haha... like i told you guys.. i wanna to try new things... not only tat, im trying to slim down.. hope i can do it.. n ya.. 4 e 1st time i concentrate on my studies.. i knw its hard 4 me.. but i can do it.. i can cope with my maths... =)

n ya, i can't only concentrate with my studies 24 hrs aite... i also nid entertainment... but one thing i dun like it now.. SOMEONE has pass my num ard... n it really getting on my nerves eventhough i dun show it to ppl tat im really fucked up aite now... N I DUN GIVE A DAMN ABT WATS GONNA HAPPEN NEXT.... NOW I JUS CONCENTRAT ON MY STUDIES SLIMMING DOWN.. N I WILL SHOW TO PPL OUT DERE WHO I AM NOW....

2010-01-11T14:44:00.003+08:00

hey peeps.. now im schling at ite macpherson... joining electronics course... n ya, im currently staying with my cousin at yishun... but den im gonna move again... hahaz.. bt not sure where is it... so far so good... try to hang out with a group of chinese students.. N wat suprise me is tat im e only malay gal in my class... cool aite.?? n dere 4 or 5 malay guys... majority is chinese... haha... eventhough i feel uncomfortable... but i try to overcome with e new environment... n ya abt guys.?? relationship.?? i try to put a side 1st... cause now i try to concentrate with my studies... i hope i can make it... eventhough tis is not my choice that i like... sometimes i feel bored when hanging out with chinese students... but at the same time i can improve my english.. =)

I realise that i really change abit... n tat is my wish.. i hope i can change 4 e better... not to be like my oldself... now in a year2010, i try to be a new person, in a new environment.... klah i nid to go to break.. tata.. take care peeps.!!!!

ps: now i don have any com... cuz haven fix yet.. so ya... i will update it wen deres a com...

2009-12-10T18:56:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps... sorie havent update 4 a few days.. been bz with stuffs... hahaha.... abt my guy.??? jus 4get abt it aite peeps... im totally sick and tired of everything.... let it be the way it was... hope u all understand wat i mean... =) and ya, i will not be active... got sumthin on... cuz im gonna move frm BP.. so im gonna be bz.... so ya... WHO GT MY HP NO, CNTC ME AITE... take care... bye....

2009-12-07T15:35:00.001+08:00

It totally break my heart.... we jus break off....
n ya.... he got another gal..!!!!!!!! i been thru all this a lot of times.... but y must me.??? i jus wan a happy life...!!!!! kla gtg.... no mood here bye....

2009-12-04T11:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i met him... we spent our tyme together... he was quite romantic.... bt yesterday is e last day i met him... wondering when i can met him again.... haix.... i really mish him so much.!!! n btw im gonna move from bp to yishun.!!! yeah.!!! kla gtg.. bye....

2009-12-02T10:57:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.. sorie 4 not updating since sun... my blog sort urh... btw trip to mlysia was quite enjoyable... sorie i can't upload the pics... i don't y... blog sort urh... btw now im att with someone... hope i can last long with him... yesterday i mit him... he was quite romantic.... hehe.. kla i gtg.. bye...

2009-11-25T11:55:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps.!!! Starting from tomorrow untill sun, i will be off to KL.. to celebrate Hari Raya Haji.!!!! when i came back, i will update aite...!!! take care.!!! love ya.!! muacx.!

2009-11-24T21:31:00.002+08:00

hey peeps... actually today i pick abby up from home and bring her back to my house... den we spent time together with audi at home... haha... it was quite fun.... and u know wat i know.??? YESTERDAY MY SCH HAS A PROM NIGHT AND NOT A SGL PERSON TELL ME SIA.!!! WTF AITES.! I JUS GOT KNOW FRM MY COUSIN.... CAUSE HE HAD A FRIEND SCHLING DERE... AND HIS FRIEND SAID THAT NT STUDENTS WAS NOT INTERESTED TO GO... WTF.?? I DON EVEN KNOW A SGL THING.... AND ONLY 1 PERSON GO... STUPID AITE.!!!!

2009-11-22T19:07:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when u heard a conversation between people that is older than you... It will make us realise our mistake... and make us realise that we should be happy with what we have now... and to continue on working hard for your future eventhough there's a misunderstanding between it.. ( u know what i mean aite) Abt him.. well i am 100% single aite...

Mummy, is not that i won let you married again, of course i will.. i wanna see you happy mum... Is just that im scared that u will suffer as last time... Until now, i can't forget the incident...

2009-11-22T09:51:00.002+08:00

Argh.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Y DO PEOPLE DO THIS AT ME.??!!! THE $.!!! MY EX KNOW THAT THAT BLODDY GUY TAKE.!!!! I MAKE IT LIKE A FOOL.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM THAT STUPID IS IT.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-21T12:15:00.010+08:00

hey peeps... actually there nothing much interesting this few days.. ya cause i just stay at home doing nothing.. hahax... i was just talking otp, play computer games... yesterday night i was talking to my friend, rizal... we talk abt ite courses... n ya.. i wondering which courses i will go to.... i thought of taking business.. is business good for my future.??? hopefully urh... but before talking with him otp... i was damn bored... so i take some picture... with audi la....

2009-11-19T20:41:00.005+08:00

hey peeps... sorie if i havent update 4 few days... my com sort urh...!!!! i was so damn bored staying at home... nk gie jogging, tk le.. hujan.... haix... btw i found tis pictures that naz ask me to upload at fb... kecoh siak.!!! hahahha.....

Tis pictures has a lot of memories..!!

2009-11-17T17:07:00.002+08:00

My grandma found abt everything.. not all urh.. she alr know abt the $... as per normal urh.. i keep myself quiet... hahah.. skrg kepala aku tgh berdenyut... haix... my ex really make a fool of me... but its ok la... i try my best to settle this problem... today i can't go for a jog... i have a headache.... klah.. gtg... if tonight, i have something to update abt, i will aite... if not den tomorrow den..... buhbye.!

2009-11-16T12:36:00.002+08:00

.....14 november.....

hey... i gt alot of things to tell you all guys.... k 1st about my bdae... my family and i was having a great day.... we had a family gathering... cut the cakes... hahaha.!!! it was so fun untill i can't express it.... den after that, as per normal... my aunty, grandma, cousin n with my aunty's friend, we were having so called night tour urh... untill 4 am babe... hahaha.... in the middle of that tour... someone msg me... he is a friend of my godbro.. den we intro ourselve.... thnk go he don't go for looks.... while we msging each other, others and i went to tekka, eat durian,fishery port.... den my uncle pick my aunty, and i frm fishery port... den we went back home... i don have the pic.... when i have it... i will upload it here....

.....15 november.....

Den when i wake up in the mornin, that guy msg me... haha.. we talk otp until 7 seh... he such sweet and lovely guy... but i get to know yesterday night, he look into my pic at facebook... den dier senyapkn diri.... i get the point here... he lied to me... he did go for looks... den today he msg me... said that he sleep... sleep at 9 plus urh... bullshit.!!!! i knw everything frm my godbro.... but watever it is.... i wont care abt tis guy animore.... i gonna lose cntc with him... and ya he said he is not into r/s... am i into r/s.??? i give up alr urh...!!!!! ya abt my ex... i patched with him again... i nw its crazy... but do you think im gonna serious with him after what he had done to me.?? come on... i dun even care abt guys now.... i jus wanna enjoy my life beb.!!!!

2009-11-14T09:46:00.002+08:00

Im totally in the dead meat.!! she get to know alr... wat am i gonna do now.??? im totally dead sia.!!!! y must be today.!!!!!!!!!! totally sway.!!!!!!!!

2009-11-14T09:16:00.004+08:00

Morning peeps... ya.. today is my day... actually today gonna be a boring day.... yerlah... abby ikut kak2 gie zoo.... abeh audi pun ikut.... boring kn.??? im looking forward to abby... cause i did miss her a lot. :) she the only sis that i have.... today only have my mum, her friend,my grandma n my cousin grandma... haix.. im glad there is someone who would be there for me... like my mummy... i did kol him yesterday n today... argh.... i don even know y i did kol him... haix.. as per normal... he did want me back... but i won't have him back.... never in my life.!!! then he give up on me.... hahaha... watever la ekh.... klah... nth to say alr... come back tomorrow to update it aite... will be goin to dinner and night tour untill 4 am... cool aite.!!! hope is gonna be a fun day.... klah.... buhbye...

2009-11-13T21:26:00.003+08:00

And i did change my skin.... hahaha.... But i think this skin is perfect..... :) And ya about the $... my grandma wants to borrow my $ ard $2oo..... and thank god she didn't check my book bank..... haha... i did ask my ex... but he keepin himselve quiet... so wat shld i do.??? nth la.... ya.. i knw he is playing ard with me... but i can't do anithin now... so i just heck care la... u remember that i gt tell u abt 1 friend of mine.? he is Nonsense.!!!! i can't give wat he want... den just lose contact with me... Mepek kn.??? and he said that the reason is not about that.. but because i hot tempered.... ohh come on...!!! i am so emosional... u shld know y rite.??? but when i think back, if that the reason u want to lose cntc with me, it is bullshit.!!! but watever it is, without u as a friend... i can still survive.!!! and ya i gonna move with watever i have.... N ya tomorrow is my big day.!! im totally loking forward.. i know i gt said that i don wan to celebrate my bdae coz of what i am goin through all this while... but when i think back.... there no point if i do that cause in the end i will get nth... rite peeps.??? n one more thing, tomorrow i will pick abby and bring back to my home.... hope i gonna enjoy that day and not having an unlucky day..!!! k gtg now.... i will update tomorrow.!!! take care peeps.!!!!!

update about mon.........

2009-11-10T19:24:00.002+08:00

ya, i just change my skin.... hahaha.... sorie i havent update yesterday.. internet sort seh... On monday night, my friend called me... then i told him eveything abt my guy... so far, my guy had lied to me a lot of things... on that day, he kol me... he said after work, he went back home... he saw that chinese gal... then after that, he went to sleep... that gal also went to sleep.. then he realised abt 4 or 5 am.. both of them was naked... i was damn shocked when i heard that... he said that he didn't realised what was he doin.. its bullshit rite.?? rite peeps.?? But watever it is, im gonna ignore that rascal... like my friend said... he was just make a fool of me... so its better to ignore him.... so ya... like my friend said, just dumped him.... so that what im gonna do now.... klah.. maybe tonight i will update again.... gtg..... bye... muacx.!!!!!!

2009-11-09T13:00:00.005+08:00

hey peeps.. sorie if i haven't update for few days... lazy la... hahahax... not only that, my com always lag.. wtf sia.!!! hahaha... k let see.. there alot of things to tell you all.... On sat, my aunty and i went to children party at Sengkang... then after tat my uncle pick us den we go to getting to you dinner... i have some pictures den.... but yesterday... i was at home doing nothing... hahahahaz.... and today... i jus break up with him.. den patch up again... i dun sound him patch rite.. he is the on who sound me.. crazy rite.??? i dunno la... i still love him... but he did say that he love his wife... but now i heck care with him la... syg to syg... p klau dier selalu tipu uat perh kn.?? tul tk..?????? klah here some pictures... when i was at the dinner....

hahaah... me again.. with new clothes.....

with dr lam pin min... :)

Can't wait for 14 nov.!!!!!!!!!

So Sway.!!!

2009-11-06T21:40:00.003+08:00

Now im really stuck here.!!! Today morning, i meet my ex at bangkit and give him somthing... Then, he accompany me to buy Wrapper for mama's present... then we went back home.. I was abit relieved... then another problem.. Which i also can't tell you all... i was so stress... then my guy keepon making me so frustrated.. but nevermind la... Aku da penat la fikir kan nie semua... Harap what i told my ex what to do... hope he will.... klah.. dunno wat to talk alr... bye.!!!!

Hoping that this problem can settle smoothly

2009-11-05T20:29:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is mama's bdae.... i bought a pair so called "singlet".. Its cost only few $.. it look like singlet... well, i don't what does it called.. hahax... sorie... Then i overheard what kakak and abg's conversation... I heard that they want to buy bag.... but me.??? im embarassed of myself.... they buy so expensive but me.??? haix...

Anywae now i had a big problem... i can't tell you all what is it... its too personal :) ... But what makes me frustrated is that my guy always make me angry... i know he can't help... but please la don't make me so frustrated.. he keep on saying about past.. about what i've done.. But i regret it... and now i am so stress thinking about this... But thank god, my ex willing to help... because last time, he used to involve... And i really hope that this problem can settle smoothly.... And now i am fighting with him... haix... Nie mcm ke panggil guy aku.?????

Wondering which courses will i get.??

2009-11-04T15:01:00.007+08:00

Actually i just patched up with him yesterday... Am i doing the right thing..?? But i don't have the confident that i can last long with him... Anyway, i have search courses for ite next year... There's is a lot of courses available... But i prefer business... Don't know la... so confusing... And ther's also new courses available but they need maths or science.!!! Argh.!!! The subject that i really weak at..!!! But nevermind, this weekends i try to discuss with my mummy.. maybe in the afternoon i will go for jogging... klah... i gtg... if i have anything to update tonight, i will update.. if not tomorrow den...

2009-11-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

hey peeps....
Today, in the afternoon, i went to the dentist clinic to check whats wrong with my teeth... When the doctor was about to check... the doctor say that this is a symptoms of gum dieases.. i was shocked.. but the doctor said not to worry... he gave me some medicine... while cleaning it....i started to feel the pain..Then the doctor said to relax... after that i was about to rinse my mouth.. there is alot of blood coming out from my mouth... Then i was like eeeeeeee.!!!! i was abit panicked and my head start to ache... but the docotr advised me to relax... so i try my best to relax la... After cleaning my teeth, i was about to take my medicine and pay my bill, when the nurse said it was $82... When i check my wallet, it was not enough.. Then i kol my grandma and ask her to bring some money... While waiting for 15 min, my maid brought the money.... After paying we all went back home...

THE END

Here some pictures of audi n abby.!!

2009-11-01T21:11:00.005+08:00

ABBY AZLYNN

AUDI NYASIA

ABBY AND AUDI

ABBY AND ME.!!!!

About yesterday and today.......

2009-11-01T20:23:00.003+08:00

i have alot of tell you about yesterday and today.!!! Seriously i had a great time with abbygirl/Nurazlynn.... i was so happy.!! And it really release my stress... and i can't think much about my problem.... hahaha.... k now lets talk about yesterday...
Yesterday kak yanie fetch abby from abby's house... and i can't wait to see her until my grandma make fun of me... hahahahaha.!!! Then when abby reaches my house.... i saw abby and audi hold hands together... they were so cute like sisters... hehe.. After abby and audi play together at my house.... i brought them to playground.... we laugh and play together... it was so fun.!!!! until abby want to go back cause she was so tired... then i send them back home.... then we take turns to bath... after that we relaxed, watch tv and eat chickens that my cousin bought for us.... we sit together and talk a lot of things.... and were told by my uncle that end of december my grandma and i were going to Jakarta with his family.... I can't really wait for that time... surely it was enjoyable time... while talking, we watch ghost movies... Abby was so scared until she lie on my lap and cover her face with my pillow.... But audi was not scared at all.!!! she can still laugh and run everywhere.... haha.. until i realised that abby was fast asleep... then my mum take her home.... thats all about yesterday............

Actually theres no much thing i wanna to talk about today but its ok la...I just wanna express my feelings of happiness... Today, my grandma and i went to pick abby and bring her to causeway points... then i shopping la.... buy 3 clothes... hehehe... but before that, we went to eat KFC... then we went shopping... then we went back home... kak yanie bought abby out then she send back..
klah that alll... im sorie if my English was not that good... hehehe...
Bye..!! muacx.!!!

I must be strong to face this kind of problems....

2009-10-30T10:30:00.000+08:00

im sorie that yesterday i havent update my blog.... I really need to forget about him... Eventhough its hard for me to forget him but i have to... I really scared to have any guy in my life again... If, he really show that he is totally different from others.. cause there no point of me keeping this feeling towards him... No matter what happen. i will never end up with him.. Never.!!!!! Let he be happy with that girl.... I just don wanna be the third party... klah peeps... maybe i will update tonight... take care peeps... bye..!!

2009-10-28T18:22:00.000+08:00

My ex just call me n ermmmm.......
he ask about his friend n the word that his friend calling me...
i wondering why he should kol me n ask me the question that he already know and sayng that word loudly infront of his friends.... What is his motive of doing this.?? to make me feel bad.?? now im not feeling good.... haix... *Mood Downs..*

at last i can meet her............

2009-10-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

Today my grandma n i went for a dental check up at cck polyclinic cause of my teeth...

But when i reached there, the nurse said that there is no dental clinic here.... klah.. lets make it short... den we went to woodlands polyclinic... they said i need to go to the school dental clinic... cause at there is free n if i make a treatment at polyclinic, i must make an appointment 1st... Not only that i must pay.... Den i was like what?!!! Uat penat jek aku turun sana sini... abeh kena pergi school... da la aku da lama tk datang school.. kalau aku pergi sana pun, da lepas buat treatment. aku kena tunggu sampai pukul 2.. lagipun pat sch ukannye ada apa2.... Boring......

N level is over what.!!! No need to go to school la.... hehe...

Den after that, we went to abby's house... She so damn cute.!!! and i took some pictures of her... and now she know how to talk already.... But one day i will take her out and every week i will visit her... I regard her as my own sis....... I love you sayang.!!

And her name is Nurazlynn

Her face really look like Audi Nyasia

Sorie if i this picture was not clear.....

Bukan cinta biasa

2009-10-28T15:50:00.000+08:00

Kali ini kusadari
Aku telah jatuh cinta
Dari hatiku terdalam
Sungguh aku cinta padamu

Cintaku bukanlah cinta biasa
Jika kamu yang memiliki
Dan kamu yang temaniku seumur hidupku

Terimalah pengakuanku
Percayalah kepadaku
Semua ini kulakukan
Karena kamu memang untukku

Cinta ku bukan cinta biasa
Jika kamu yang menemani
Dan kamu yang temaniku seumur hidupku
Terimalah pengakuanku

am i in the wrong.???

2009-10-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

Today i didnt went for jogging....
Not in the mood seh....
klah i tell you why...
Yesterday night...
i had a fight with my ex's friend....
he call me something...
*i can't tell you what is it*
he said that i am angry with him...
haha.... so stupid sia...
im just saying to stop disturbing me....
den he is not happy with it...
so it is my fault la.?
Dier yg terkejar2 kn aku....
But whatever it is....
He and my ex's attitude look alike...
So both i reject....
My ex try to trick me so that he can get me back...
But im not that stupid...

Btw tomorrow my grandma and i will go to dentist to check my teeth...
cause when i try to clean my teeth, it will bleed...
maybe my gum is too weak...
hope Nothing will happen tomorrow....
klah gtg...
Love you all...
Muacx2.!!!

cant wait for that day.!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

hey peeps... im back.!
just now ard 4 plus...
i go playground with audi n my maid...
after tat i jog...
i hope i can make it better..
haha... sekali kala nk excercise tk slh kn.?
hahaa....
btw i overheard conversation between grandma n sis...
my grandma said, on 14 have a deepavali dinner...
n my sis said she go to zoo on the same itself...
wah!! on my bdae seh....
haha cool perh...
*wondering which one to go...*
hehe
klah gtg..
bye2...
MUACX.!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-26T13:25:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.. sorie if i havent update 4 a few days...

my com buat hal....

hahaha....

btw yesterday i follow my family to imm...

we walk2 la....

i take 2 pictures of audi...

y not me.? i lazy to take a pic of myself...

but audi...

i will always take her pic.....

I like her smile.......

Hey.. wat r u looking at.??

Den abt my ex n his friend....

lazy for me to talk about....

is useless talking abt them......

hahaha....

today maybe i bring audi to playground....

nth to do wat....

my mum said i don need to work....

den i have to do my own work den....

hahaha....

klah... maybe i update again aite...

i want to eat....

tata.!!!!

Needing someone now....

2009-10-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

hey peeps....
well today as usual i stay at home.....
haix... want to find work.???
what should i work as.???
anyone can recommend me..??
hahax...

My feelings towards him is still dere....
eventhough he is happy with her...
but i tried to make myself happy...
cause no use of keeping this feeling...
cause in the end i will never end up with him...
eventhough he want me back...
i told everything about wat his fwen said about him..
he was angry... but i ask him to forget everything and act normal...
actually in the 1st place he thought he want me,his fwen and himself to come down and talk about it...
but i reject it.. y.?? cause i don wanna mit him and i don wan to make things worse...
so jus let it be..
and he just kol me...
i feel like i wanna express my feelings....
but i cant....
now i just nid someone that can accompany me....
someone that can bring me happiness....
someone that can guide me through all my problems that im facing now...
But at the same time, i try to make my self strong....
klah peeps...
i want to watch tv....
take care aites..
if anything just beep me on under Craps aite...

in a confusing mood.....

2009-10-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

sorie peeps for not updating for a few days....
i have no idea wait to update about...
cause im just seating at home with grandma,my maid n Audi nyasia...
it quite bored at home den...
nothing to do.. jus playing computer games...
talking on the phone...
watching tv.....
lama2 pun aku ukan kurus...
makin gemuk pun ada urh....
hahaaha...!!!!

K now im totally bored....
but at the same time aku confused.....
he say sorie to me.. n want to patched with me back...
how should i be with him, when he got other two person to be responsible off....
i just don't want to be a third party....
but i heard alot of things about him from his friend...
im not sure whether it is true or not cause i don have the proof....
but the way he talk n his reaction is totally different from what i heard about....
n his friend like me.... OMG....
im not sure y he like me...
hmmm..... now i get the point...
he say bad things about him so that i can hate him....
well... this is what i think about them....
In other word....
Don't ever believe what people say if you don't have a proof....
like me... i don't believe what he said about him....
cause he don't have a proof... n the proof he gave me is not clear enough...
so ya... im just going to ignore about what is happening around me...
im just going to act normal....
N i forget... he got say that i really change...
he said that the way i talk is so sarcastic...
is it true.?? hmmmm.....
maybe that time i was so frustrated about odd num calling me msging me....
and i still can't forget about my past....
Well if it is really true that i really change...
i hope that i change for good..... :)
klah peeps i gtg....
BYE.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Muacx2.!!!

im a single ladies.!!!!!!

2009-10-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

well, he and i are officially over........
thnks god.... at last he admit that the child is his child....
p i paling aku tk uke... dier mintak alik $....
mepek kn.?? den now aku pokai... boi jugak tlg aku...
pas 2 dier die maki2 aku...
ckp aku nie pompuan apa la...
but what makes the difference between me and him.???
dier pun sama perh.???
setakat guna2 kn aku jek....
but watever it is aku tkkn menyesal...
bab DIER TK PERNA RASA BDN AKU.....
klah setakat nie jek....
nnt mlm aku update agi k... bye.!!!!

What happen to me.??

2009-10-18T17:59:00.000+08:00

Out of sudden i want to break with my guy....
well im not sure y...
i do love him... its jus that... argh.!!!
tk tau la... btw today is our annivesarry....
but im e one tat sound break...
haix...
tah la... maybe aku asyik fikir psl dier ngan pompuan 2 jek...
haix... apa la nk jad ngan aku...
aku asa aku nie da mcm siao ikit urh...
Now im all alone....
feeling abit lost....
nid someone tat can understand me... shower me with care........
biar la..... haix... aku sendiri tk tau apa aku nk............

You make me smile....

2009-10-18T12:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night i was having a great time with my new friend....
new friend ekh.??
padahal da lama seh aku ada msn add dier...
ume tk perna cntc.. pelik kn.??
biase la knl pt internet perh....
hahaha.....
semlm aku sort sia... den i nid someone to talk to...
den he was dere....
den i decided to kol him....

So i kol him ard 11....
and we talk abt ourselve..
Express my feelings...
he gave me some advice..
he make me laugh...
He such a sweet guy....
hahaha...
we talk till 4 am...
i2 pun aku tk asa ngantuk....

p semlm guy aku tk kol aku pun...
tkper la...
maybe dier bz kn...
da la mls nk fikir2 lagi....

Take carez peeps..!!!
Bye.!!!!
p.s: mlm nie nek2 aku alik..!! yeah.!!!

what should i do.?

2009-10-17T20:03:00.000+08:00

The whole day i stay at home doing nth...

just online chatting , play games n etc....

papa ask me out for halloween party at night safari with yanie and her family....

Yesterday yanie ask me out with her family...

but i reject it.. WHY.??

well, i don't even know why...

suddenly, i feel so moody...

haix..

k.. let make it short rite...

i call him, i force him to admit that he is the father of that child...

but in the end, he said it was not him...

but when i think back, Why not be him.?

because he was so stress up thinking where to get the $ for that child....

you know what he said, he said that he want to repay back her kindness...

im not sure why he must repay back her kindnes...

What had the gal do at him until he can use his pocket $ for that child .???

i know that this gal had known him 4 a long time.. n been loving him since......

im not sure when...

what should i do.?

he ask me to 4get about it...

who should i turn 2..??

Anyone suggestion.???

n i remember that he really like tis pic...

well i hope it is not memory den.... :(

????HOPE?????

2009-10-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

well...
i jus call him jus now...
we talk and talk...
i told him everything...
about my feelings all this while...
haix...
its the fact anywae...
i dun even know why i always dream about him and that GAL..
WHY.??
and i gt the feeling that he gonna leave me anywae..
he told me that the gal is pregnant...
1 month...
den i say la siapa sak uat dier mcm 2...
den he keep quiet..
den i say is it you.??
he said no...
den i jus put down the phone without saying anything...
is it my fault.? aku da tk leh tahan nk ngangis...
2 psl aku uat mcm 2...
well i cant accused him any how rite.?
FYI...
i dun think i can last long with him....
cause all this while i gt the feeling that we gonna seperate one day.....
haix...

THIS IS FOR YOU DARLINK.....

All this while i thought that you re same as other guys...
but when i get to know you closer... i felt something that i hardly to explain....
My feelings started to change when i mit you...
Your hugs make me feel warm...
Your kiss make me feel that the world is only mine...
When i need you, you always be there for me...
now i have no hope that i can be with you forever...
but i always pray for you happiness....
I know that one day you will be with someone else............

Kla aku tk tau lagi nk ckp apa...
buhbye.....

HE S BACK.!!!

2009-10-15T19:48:00.000+08:00

HE'S BACK.!! MY CYG BACK..!!!!!
P DIER KENA TAGGING...
P AKU TK KISAH.
AS LONG DIER ALIK.!!
I LOVE YOU CYG.!!!
MUACX2.!!!

When boredom strike....

2009-10-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

Now im at home doing nth....

pt umah ada audi ngan bibik jek..

mak gie lot 1... dier ajak aku..

p aku mls urh... asyik kuar ngan dier jek...

esk dier nk p mlysia ngan kwn2 dier...

hmmm....

kla nk ckp psl semlm lak...

semlm guy aku kol aku...

dier kata nari kul 10 am...

dier msk boys hm 4 a few mths..

tahla ekh...

haix.. aku uruh dier ubah...

p tah la... dier nk dgr ke tk nk 2 dier peh psl...

aku da mls urh...

mummy aku asi aku keje...

p aku lak yg tk tau nk werk apa..

Anyone ada kosong.??

fast food aku tk nk ekh...

im trying to workout utk slim kn body aku...

insyaalah la aku leh ekh...

mcm phm lak aku nie..!!! lol.!

klah here some pic.....

kebnykkn pun audi nye pic jugak...

haha.. yerlah my one and only baby perh...

hahaz....

Pandai lak dier amek pic... her name is Audi nyasia

My face Sucks sia.!!! p muka audi cute.!

BYE BYE.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just came back... lol.!

2009-10-13T20:42:00.000+08:00

hey peeps...
Im back at last...

penat seh....

mls la nk cerita...

i found tis pic at kak yanie's facebook...

yg tat time kite gie town with mimi n hafiz....

otw to town...

sempat pose pt escalator....

lol.! muka.....

nie candid la sei...

samer tk mcm pic ion .? hahaz..

THE END...!!!!

...... WATEVER .........

2009-10-11T11:49:00.000+08:00

hey peeps...
i just chat with him at msn...
die mcm nk tk nk jek chat ngan aku..
tah la ekh...
semlm agi aku so called "gaduh ngan dier"
p dier kata dier tkkn lepas kn aku...
haix... tk tau la..

Abeh nari dier mcm nk tk nk ual2 ngan aku...
tah la... tk tau apa agi nk uat..

btw nnt aku gie dinner agi...
semlm mlm dinner...
nari dinner...
leh pengsan aku...
hahaha....
mama aku la nie...
semlm ada dinner pt teck ghee cc...
nari lak pt sengkang...
den pas 2 aku ngan nek2 aku gie malacca 4 1 or 2 days urh...

but seblm 2 aku gie bugis ulu ngan kak2 aku...
BEST.!!!

kla gtg.. buhbye.!!!

is it because of me.?

2009-10-09T13:54:00.000+08:00

haix...
aku tul2 confused seh psl relationship....
stress tau...
klau aku nk setia, org 2 uat hal...
klau aku tk nk setia org 2 nk setia...
is it because of me.??
abeh ulu diorg uat aku le.?
abeh semua org ckp aku nie same mcm betina lain...
den korg uruh aku mcm ulu...
mengalah jek...

salah perh aku uat.??
skrg guy aku nie...
tul ke setia ngan aku.?
atau aku jek yang shoik sendiri...
aku pun tk tau asl susah sgt nk caya guys agi...
2 psl aku mcm nie...
i2 pun korg tk caya...

aku tk nk lelaki mainkn aku mcm ulu...
aku da serik...
2 psl perangai aku mcm nie...

tahla ekh....
abeh org ckp aku nie penipu..
memang aku ckp aku trust korg p at the same time aku try to forget abt my past...
p susah...
salah aku jugak ke.? haix...

Love is blind

2009-10-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

I see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mindHe leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the shelf
He doesn't really care how you feel...You should be moving on what's the deal?girl you know your worth much more... I wana see you out that door

So baby tell me why you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go
You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wana see you out that door
Yah azizi isma iniI really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break awayLet him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there some there for you
Someone that will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know your worth so much more
Wana see you out that door

Yah azizi isma iniI really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break awayLet him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind
Yah azizi isma iniI really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break awayLet him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know its time to move on.. girl your love is blind..

.................Haix.............

2009-10-08T14:24:00.000+08:00

Today ada maths paper 2 exam, ok la.. Senang ikit urh...
tk mcm paper 1.. susah nk mampos...
paper maths abis kul 9.30...
ile paper da abis..
1 class kecoh seh..
maklumla n lvl da bis perh...
aku ngan fahana kuar scg..
terserempak ngan haikel pt gate...
dier kata jgn lupa kn dier urh..
nmpk pt luar jgn lupa tegur...
hahaha.... Of course la haikel..
mesti aku tegur kau perh..

pastu aku mit guy aku jap...
semlm dier ada kol aku...
dier kata mit pt lot 1 kul 10 tau.. den aku 2nggu urh...
dier tk muncul2 jugak.. den abt half an hour, dier kol aku...
"u pt aner?"
"i pt lot la.. u pt aner seh.?"
"i pt luar umah"
"pt luar umah.... uat penat aku 2nggu kau seh"
"u can mit me at jp?"
"klah2.."

Aku pun bingit urh... terus aku mit naik MRT mit dier pt boon lay sta...
ile aku ampai...
aku tk nmpk dier...
den aku 2nggu 4 another half and hour...
siapa tk bingit siak.?
pas2 dier muncul...
dier uat bdh jek.. ukan nk ckp sowie...
p aku tk psl urh...
den dier tanya.. "da lama 2nggu?"
aku pun step urh ckp.. "tk la lima min jek"
den dier uat bdh...
dier kata nk li ear stud..
aku pun main ah2 kn jek laa...
aku tk ckp sepatah pun...
i2 pun dier tk sedar...

den kite gie mac...
dier gie li burger...
aku.?
langsung tk der selera nk mkn...
pas2 kite car tempat duk2...
den dier ukak la laptop dier...
mcm2 website dier ukak..
aku pun mls nk lyn...
aku uat bdh...
abeh dier tanya aku ok ke tk...
2 jek tanya.? aku pun ok kn jek la...
blah2...

den dier uruh aku alik...
aku pun alik la...

lum dier alik... dier asi 1 kish pt pipi aku..
abeh aku terus teringat urh yg nari dier kena.................................
aku pun ngangis urh ambil aku alik umah...
haix.....
da la.. nat tkder mood urh...
bye2..

!!!!....EnJoYaBle Dayz....!!!!!

2009-10-07T19:29:00.000+08:00

Hey sowie da lama tk tulis... Quite Bz ngan N lvl urh....

Good gal perh... hehe

kk dah... nnt kembang lak aku nie...

Here s my story,

On tat day, at last dier gie Hospital...

den dier kena masuk ward..

but in the end, doctor cakap dier da leh alik...

when he was otw home, i call him..

we talk2... den bile dier da sampai rumah, i ask him 2 rest...

But now, i really worried about him 4 tmr...

Hope nth going to happen to him...

haix...

Today i gt cpa exam...

k la... quite easy...

after that, i went back home...

Den i go POSB to withdraw my money...

den i went to Causeway point with my grandma...

i do some shopping...

buy new clothes....
den we eat pizza hut...

pastu kite gie lot 1 lak...

we re having a great fun....

kk heres some pictures....

My Fav.!!! LASAGNIA

Why my face like.................

This is my one and only Grandma..

Sowie la klau tk bnyk pic....
klah gtg....
Nk tgk tv...
Btw wish me luck 4 tmr exam...
Math paper 2 seh...
harap2 tk susah mcm paper 1 urh...

p yg best...
esk is the last day of exam..!!
WOOHOO.!!!! ENJOY.!!!

Fucking worried about you.!

2009-10-04T10:04:00.000+08:00

hey peeps..
im fucking worried about him.. semlm mlm dier kena pukul..
tk tau dari siapa... kwn dier ckp bdn dier teruk, darah tk berhenti....
N he said, stop worrying abt him.. How can i.? on Mon is my n lvl...
OMG.!!! den he is resting at home..
Thankz God.! p dier tk nk gie hospital... Degil kn.?
den i ask him 2 go 2 polyclinic.. he said ok..
but im not sure whether he is going or not...
haix.. da la aku tk le kuar umah... WTF sia.!!
den on wed aku ingat nk mit him after my exam bab exam aku abis 10 plus...
p dier tk asi... dier kata dier nk turun tempat aku on thur...
Degil kn dier nie.? akit2 agi dier nk turun tempat aku....
haix... apa sia aku nk uat.? da la ssh nk kuar umah,
cyg aku akit... haix...

da la natra tkder mood urh.... BYE BYE