im sorie that yesterday i havent update my blog.... I really need to forget about him... Eventhough its hard for me to forget him but i have to... I really scared to have any guy in my life again... If, he really show that he is totally different from others.. cause there no point of me keeping this feeling towards him... No matter what happen. i will never end up with him.. Never.!!!!! Let he be happy with that girl.... I just don wanna be the third party... klah peeps... maybe i will update tonight... take care peeps... bye..!!

My ex just call me n ermmmm.......
he ask about his friend n the word that his friend calling me...
i wondering why he should kol me n ask me the question that he already know and sayng that word loudly infront of his friends.... What is his motive of doing this.?? to make me feel bad.?? now im not feeling good.... haix... *Mood Downs..*

Her face really look like Audi Nyasia

Sorie if i this picture was not clear.....

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Today i didnt went for jogging....
Not in the mood seh....
klah i tell you why...
Yesterday night...
i had a fight with my ex's friend....
he call me something...
*i can't tell you what is it*
he said that i am angry with him...
haha.... so stupid sia...
im just saying to stop disturbing me....
den he is not happy with it...
so it is my fault la.?
Dier yg terkejar2 kn aku....
But whatever it is....
He and my ex's attitude look alike...
So both i reject....
My ex try to trick me so that he can get me back...
But im not that stupid...

Btw tomorrow my grandma and i will go to dentist to check my teeth...
cause when i try to clean my teeth, it will bleed...
maybe my gum is too weak...
hope Nothing will happen tomorrow....
klah gtg...
Love you all...
Muacx2.!!!

hey peeps... im back.!
just now ard 4 plus...
i go playground with audi n my maid...
after tat i jog...
i hope i can make it better..
haha... sekali kala nk excercise tk slh kn.?
hahaa....
btw i overheard conversation between grandma n sis...
my grandma said, on 14 have a deepavali dinner...
n my sis said she go to zoo on the same itself...
wah!! on my bdae seh....
haha cool perh...
*wondering which one to go...*
hehe
klah gtg..
bye2...
MUACX.!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey peeps.. sorie if i havent update 4 a few days...

Den abt my ex n his friend....

lazy for me to talk about....

is useless talking abt them......

hahaha....

today maybe i bring audi to playground....

nth to do wat....

my mum said i don need to work....

den i have to do my own work den....

hahaha....

klah... maybe i update again aite...

i want to eat....

tata.!!!!

hey peeps....
well today as usual i stay at home.....
haix... want to find work.???
what should i work as.???
anyone can recommend me..??
hahax...

My feelings towards him is still dere....
eventhough he is happy with her...
but i tried to make myself happy...
cause no use of keeping this feeling...
cause in the end i will never end up with him...
eventhough he want me back...
i told everything about wat his fwen said about him..
he was angry... but i ask him to forget everything and act normal...
actually in the 1st place he thought he want me,his fwen and himself to come down and talk about it...
but i reject it.. y.?? cause i don wanna mit him and i don wan to make things worse...
so jus let it be..
and he just kol me...
i feel like i wanna express my feelings....
but i cant....
now i just nid someone that can accompany me....
someone that can bring me happiness....
someone that can guide me through all my problems that im facing now...
But at the same time, i try to make my self strong....
klah peeps...
i want to watch tv....
take care aites..
if anything just beep me on under Craps aite...

sorie peeps for not updating for a few days....
i have no idea wait to update about...
cause im just seating at home with grandma,my maid n Audi nyasia...
it quite bored at home den...
nothing to do.. jus playing computer games...
talking on the phone...
watching tv.....
lama2 pun aku ukan kurus...
makin gemuk pun ada urh....
hahaaha...!!!!

K now im totally bored....
but at the same time aku confused.....
he say sorie to me.. n want to patched with me back...
how should i be with him, when he got other two person to be responsible off....
i just don't want to be a third party....
but i heard alot of things about him from his friend...
im not sure whether it is true or not cause i don have the proof....
but the way he talk n his reaction is totally different from what i heard about....
n his friend like me.... OMG....
im not sure y he like me...
hmmm..... now i get the point...
he say bad things about him so that i can hate him....
well... this is what i think about them....
In other word....
Don't ever believe what people say if you don't have a proof....
like me... i don't believe what he said about him....
cause he don't have a proof... n the proof he gave me is not clear enough...
so ya... im just going to ignore about what is happening around me...
im just going to act normal....
N i forget... he got say that i really change...
he said that the way i talk is so sarcastic...
is it true.?? hmmmm.....
maybe that time i was so frustrated about odd num calling me msging me....
and i still can't forget about my past....
Well if it is really true that i really change...
i hope that i change for good..... :)
klah peeps i gtg....
BYE.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Muacx2.!!!

well, he and i are officially over........
thnks god.... at last he admit that the child is his child....
p i paling aku tk uke... dier mintak alik $....
mepek kn.?? den now aku pokai... boi jugak tlg aku...
pas 2 dier die maki2 aku...
ckp aku nie pompuan apa la...
but what makes the difference between me and him.???
dier pun sama perh.???
setakat guna2 kn aku jek....
but watever it is aku tkkn menyesal...
bab DIER TK PERNA RASA BDN AKU.....
klah setakat nie jek....
nnt mlm aku update agi k... bye.!!!!

Out of sudden i want to break with my guy....
well im not sure y...
i do love him... its jus that... argh.!!!
tk tau la... btw today is our annivesarry....
but im e one tat sound break...
haix...
tah la... maybe aku asyik fikir psl dier ngan pompuan 2 jek...
haix... apa la nk jad ngan aku...
aku asa aku nie da mcm siao ikit urh...
Now im all alone....
feeling abit lost....
nid someone tat can understand me... shower me with care........
biar la..... haix... aku sendiri tk tau apa aku nk............

Yesterday night i was having a great time with my new friend....
new friend ekh.??
padahal da lama seh aku ada msn add dier...
ume tk perna cntc.. pelik kn.??
biase la knl pt internet perh....
hahaha.....
semlm aku sort sia... den i nid someone to talk to...
den he was dere....
den i decided to kol him....

So i kol him ard 11....
and we talk abt ourselve..
Express my feelings...
he gave me some advice..
he make me laugh...
He such a sweet guy....
hahaha...
we talk till 4 am...
i2 pun aku tk asa ngantuk....

p semlm guy aku tk kol aku pun...
tkper la...
maybe dier bz kn...
da la mls nk fikir2 lagi....

Take carez peeps..!!!
Bye.!!!!
p.s: mlm nie nek2 aku alik..!! yeah.!!!

The whole day i stay at home doing nth...

well...
i jus call him jus now...
we talk and talk...
i told him everything...
about my feelings all this while...
haix...
its the fact anywae...
i dun even know why i always dream about him and that GAL..
WHY.??
and i gt the feeling that he gonna leave me anywae..
he told me that the gal is pregnant...
1 month...
den i say la siapa sak uat dier mcm 2...
den he keep quiet..
den i say is it you.??
he said no...
den i jus put down the phone without saying anything...
is it my fault.? aku da tk leh tahan nk ngangis...
2 psl aku uat mcm 2...
well i cant accused him any how rite.?
FYI...
i dun think i can last long with him....
cause all this while i gt the feeling that we gonna seperate one day.....
haix...

THIS IS FOR YOU DARLINK.....

All this while i thought that you re same as other guys...
but when i get to know you closer... i felt something that i hardly to explain....
My feelings started to change when i mit you...
Your hugs make me feel warm...
Your kiss make me feel that the world is only mine...
When i need you, you always be there for me...
now i have no hope that i can be with you forever...
but i always pray for you happiness....
I know that one day you will be with someone else............



Kla aku tk tau lagi nk ckp apa...
buhbye.....

HE'S BACK.!! MY CYG BACK..!!!!!
P DIER KENA TAGGING...
P AKU TK KISAH.
AS LONG DIER ALIK.!!
I LOVE YOU CYG.!!!
MUACX2.!!!

Now im at home doing nth....

lol.! muka.....

nie candid la sei...

THE END...!!!!

hey peeps...
i just chat with him at msn...
die mcm nk tk nk jek chat ngan aku..
tah la ekh...
semlm agi aku so called "gaduh ngan dier"
p dier kata dier tkkn lepas kn aku...
haix... tk tau la..

Abeh nari dier mcm nk tk nk ual2 ngan aku...
tah la... tk tau apa agi nk uat..


btw nnt aku gie dinner agi...
semlm mlm dinner...
nari dinner...
leh pengsan aku...
hahaha....
mama aku la nie...
semlm ada dinner pt teck ghee cc...
nari lak pt sengkang...
den pas 2 aku ngan nek2 aku gie malacca 4 1 or 2 days urh...

but seblm 2 aku gie bugis ulu ngan kak2 aku...
BEST.!!!

kla gtg.. buhbye.!!!

haix...
aku tul2 confused seh psl relationship....
stress tau...
klau aku nk setia, org 2 uat hal...
klau aku tk nk setia org 2 nk setia...
is it because of me.??
abeh ulu diorg uat aku le.?
abeh semua org ckp aku nie same mcm betina lain...
den korg uruh aku mcm ulu...
mengalah jek...

salah perh aku uat.??
skrg guy aku nie...
tul ke setia ngan aku.?
atau aku jek yang shoik sendiri...
aku pun tk tau asl susah sgt nk caya guys agi...
2 psl aku mcm nie...
i2 pun korg tk caya...

aku tk nk lelaki mainkn aku mcm ulu...
aku da serik...
2 psl perangai aku mcm nie...

tahla ekh....
abeh org ckp aku nie penipu..
memang aku ckp aku trust korg p at the same time aku try to forget abt my past...
p susah...
salah aku jugak ke.? haix...

I see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mindHe leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the shelf
He doesn't really care how you feel...You should be moving on what's the deal?girl you know your worth much more... I wana see you out that door

So baby tell me why you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go
You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wana see you out that door
Yah azizi isma iniI really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break awayLet him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there some there for you
Someone that will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know your worth so much more
Wana see you out that door

Yah azizi isma iniI really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break awayLet him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind
Yah azizi isma iniI really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break awayLet him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know its time to move on.. girl your love is blind..

Today ada maths paper 2 exam, ok la.. Senang ikit urh...
tk mcm paper 1.. susah nk mampos...
paper maths abis kul 9.30...
ile paper da abis..
1 class kecoh seh..
maklumla n lvl da bis perh...
aku ngan fahana kuar scg..
terserempak ngan haikel pt gate...
dier kata jgn lupa kn dier urh..
nmpk pt luar jgn lupa tegur...
hahaha.... Of course la haikel..
mesti aku tegur kau perh..


pastu aku mit guy aku jap...
semlm dier ada kol aku...
dier kata mit pt lot 1 kul 10 tau.. den aku 2nggu urh...
dier tk muncul2 jugak.. den abt half an hour, dier kol aku...
"u pt aner?"
"i pt lot la.. u pt aner seh.?"
"i pt luar umah"
"pt luar umah.... uat penat aku 2nggu kau seh"
"u can mit me at jp?"
"klah2.."

Aku pun bingit urh... terus aku mit naik MRT mit dier pt boon lay sta...
ile aku ampai...
aku tk nmpk dier...
den aku 2nggu 4 another half and hour...
siapa tk bingit siak.?
pas2 dier muncul...
dier uat bdh jek.. ukan nk ckp sowie...
p aku tk psl urh...
den dier tanya.. "da lama 2nggu?"
aku pun step urh ckp.. "tk la lima min jek"
den dier uat bdh...
dier kata nk li ear stud..
aku pun main ah2 kn jek laa...
aku tk ckp sepatah pun...
i2 pun dier tk sedar...

den kite gie mac...
dier gie li burger...
aku.?
langsung tk der selera nk mkn...
pas2 kite car tempat duk2...
den dier ukak la laptop dier...
mcm2 website dier ukak..
aku pun mls nk lyn...
aku uat bdh...
abeh dier tanya aku ok ke tk...
2 jek tanya.? aku pun ok kn jek la...
blah2...

den dier uruh aku alik...
aku pun alik la...







lum dier alik... dier asi 1 kish pt pipi aku..
abeh aku terus teringat urh yg nari dier kena.................................
aku pun ngangis urh ambil aku alik umah...
haix.....
da la.. nat tkder mood urh...
bye2..

This is my one and only Grandma..

Sowie la klau tk bnyk pic....
klah gtg....
Nk tgk tv...
Btw wish me luck 4 tmr exam...
Math paper 2 seh...
harap2 tk susah mcm paper 1 urh...

p yg best...
esk is the last day of exam..!!
WOOHOO.!!!! ENJOY.!!!

hey peeps..
im fucking worried about him.. semlm mlm dier kena pukul..
tk tau dari siapa... kwn dier ckp bdn dier teruk, darah tk berhenti....
N he said, stop worrying abt him.. How can i.? on Mon is my n lvl...
OMG.!!! den he is resting at home..
Thankz God.! p dier tk nk gie hospital... Degil kn.?
den i ask him 2 go 2 polyclinic.. he said ok..
but im not sure whether he is going or not...
haix.. da la aku tk le kuar umah... WTF sia.!!
den on wed aku ingat nk mit him after my exam bab exam aku abis 10 plus...
p dier tk asi... dier kata dier nk turun tempat aku on thur...
Degil kn dier nie.? akit2 agi dier nk turun tempat aku....
haix... apa sia aku nk uat.? da la ssh nk kuar umah,
cyg aku akit... haix...

da la natra tkder mood urh.... BYE BYE

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